out of nowhere

just watched pirates at the new cathay haha.. orite. my first time.. dint even noe its existence.. pretty nice place. supposedly high crass.. afterwhich it was a sorrow pouring session.. lol.. some ppl just get on your nerves.. like wtf.. i would have screwed that person upside down.. things will get better..

hey babes.. lets go tanning.. kbox.. shopping.. maybe erm clubbing? and more mahjong sessions..
i feel damn EMPTY after the taipei trip.. literally(diarhhea man..sianz) and emotionally too..
although i have programs lined up for me i cant help but feel depressed.. tmr it will be lunch w the ey tax ppl. fri is dear sister collins 21st dinner.. sat is w family or tanning in the morn.. or tanning on sun.. yet to be confirmed. on top of those tt ive mentioned.. im helping my uncle do this data entry thing at 120 bucks per set haha pretty good money... BUT still im sian...zzzzzzzzzzzz


Its human nature to gossip.. chit chat.. bitch.. well i cant help it but do the same..im human.. well i guess its rather important that you cover your tracks well when u wanna talk about anything but yourself.. for eg. B knows about a blemish in A's life.. and A is pretty much upset by it and simply have no intention of bringing it up like EVER AGAIN.. den comes along C D E FGHIJKLMNOPQ.. B happens to tell C about A.. C D E FGHIJKLMNOPQ starts discussing/analysing/ gossiping/ speculating about A.. D comes along and tells A about the blemish.. Now.. how should A look at B? hmm.. well I have bitched about others too.. haa guessed its just karma.. bad one..
I really really really really hate ppl to lie.. feeling of betrayal.. what may seem to be insignificant to most might just kill the person who is directly involved.. im not saying tt someone just lied to me.. but I just happen to always unravel all the darkest secrets.. by hook or by crook lol.. so if you're gonna tell someone sth that I would not even bring it up EVER AGAIN.. think twice..


when im pissed off.. words like TMD FARKING HELL MOTHER FARKER.. will just fly.. well its a form of anger management haha.. i realli would feel better after that.. sometimes when the person whom u trust or treasures most steps on your toe or hurts you in whatever manner be it pyhsically or emotionally haha.. ANGER is wad comes in first.. however this is not the worst that a person can feel.. Vulgarities allows u to express the degree of anger contained within other than just saying im angry or im very angry or im super angry.. however when ure sad.. u wouldnt like say i'm sad.. i'm very sad.. (though my nick says *sad now.. i'm diff la.. im how str8 fwd haha).. after being angry ..sadness ..emptiness.. loneliness sets in.. this is lethal i tell u.. when ure angry.. u can just yell and scold or even turn violent but when ure sad.. u will just weep and feel sad.. even when u have all the company in the world u will still feel empty.. cos sth is just missing..


im not going to check for any grammar or typo errors lol .. its like 3am now. so choo go ahead and take revenge lol.. i duno if the above makes any sense.. im just jotting down wadever comes to my mind..


zutzut