where is the love.

love.

a word that seems so simple yet simply difficult to understand.
a word that entangles so much meaning and knowledge to it.
an emotion one cant survive without.

haha how ironic.

Maybe its a bad season to love if there is one. Many around have met with various issues in their r/s with their love ones and clueless me cant help much but just lend a listening ear.

so love is?

to that i think all hold a different opinion and it really manifests diferently in everyone.

some time back, my little cousin (the cutest xinyee if u haven seen her u'll on 8th July) told me, "xiao jie jie, wo ai ni!" Wahahaha shock as i was, i'm still damn touched by that phrase. Yup i still am.

it's not because she loves me more than others or what but the sincerity and purity embraced within that phrase. Much as I dote on her tremendously above the others, i didnt really show it in my actions. As in you know spend more time with her, play with her, buy toys and stuff for her. So for her to tell me that, to me its a kind of i'm loving u for who u are and fullstop.

that i think is my definition to the qns.
More on this the next time haha, but more importantly to what has happened to all recently all i want to say is this:

Often than not, we question if that someone is worthy and deserves to be loved. We say he/she hurts us badly and why is it so unfair. Indeed it is unfair coz that's life.

Then again, are u worthy and do you deserve his/hers? What i'm trying to say is while questioning, maybe you want to take a step back and reflect upon urself first. Don't know if its true, but to me its always a reciprocal kind of thing. A person's behavious is somewhat reflective of the dealing party.

you ask so much of him but are you able to reciprocate back the same manner or at least in other manner that he would like you to. Maybe u see it as only cos u treat me nice so i treat u nicely too but it need not be so if done in a right way, with the correct intention. at least my cousin understands that.

so who are u to judge and measure his love for you. The yardstick i think is something to be decided by the two person.

sometimes you get so dishearten you failed/forget to look at the strong pts n why u fall in lurve with him in the first place. Has he changed or have you asked for more.

Once one party starts asking for more or starts questioning, it inevitably leads to further probing from the other party. Expectation is good but over expecting leads to disappointment and the dismay leads to disaster and it detrimental to both parties.

all the Ds add up to DEATH of the relationship. Doomed.

you make mistakes too? If you are being forgiven, if you are given the second chance, if you have been unfair to some other pple, if you failed to learn ur mistakes, if you have been shown the magnitude of boundless love, why cant u forward it to someone else?

Some says...
Unless you take out the splinter in ur eyes, all u can see is a piece of wood.
Unless you remove the hatred in ur heart, you have no room to fill it with love.

so just start loving.

have faith!

Eventually, all things would be made right.
It will be.


-she who is still learning to love.